Kimininegaiwo

I can't even put down in words, the way I feel sometimes. The way I feel right now as I'm writing this. I would like to explain, but the people who cares won't understand. All they do is choke on the taught that I'm "unhappy and don't want to live, what did we do wrong", and I think this is why suicide, to many, feels so unexpected. "I had no Idea, he/she was feeling this way" "I didn't know it was that bad..." Because the human herself, probably didn't want to concern you, or maybe this being did try to bring up the subject but without you understanding what's it all about. I cant even express these feelings onto canvas anymore... They h

"I am paranoid that everyone secretly hates me and thinks i am really, really annoying and awful and is pretending to be my friend and it's all part of some big joke." sadly is what i've believed for a long time and am having a hard time letting go of I know it's not only hurting myself, but the ones close to me.

yeah...